June 15, 2014

SUNDAY LOVE. #24. LOSING LOVE.


I think this Sunday Love post is becoming a little bit of a self help for me. I'm dragging you guys along the journey with me so I hope you don't mind. Sometimes, getting your thoughts and feelings out onto paper, well here a blank screen, gets what ever is going on inside your head, off your chest and into the open. What I love about when I write these sorts of lifestyle posts, is your feedback. You are always a constant support and I don't know what I would do without cha! So thank you. 

Alot has happened to me over the last few weeks. I didn't want to make a massive deal out of it but sadly John and I decided to end our relationship. A mutual decision and one that wasn't easy to make. Its tough when you have tried everything but somethings just don't fit and whether it is now or in the future, I know deep down that this is best for both of us. Don't get me wrong though, it makes it no easier - probably worse even. At least if a relationship ends badly you can hate each other or feel anger instead of pain but this time it's been just pure sadness and loss. We have been together for four and a half years now, that's a blooming long time in my eyes and heart breaking to end. Its been such an amazing few years, through thick and thin we have had some great times. I wouldn't change anything. Time will heal - I'm hoping - and fingers crossed we can remain friends for as long as it's possible.

Unfortunately, it wasn't as easy for us cutting all ties. You may know that we do in fact live together with my sister Jess and John's best friend. Although it was a hard one, I took the decision last week to move back down the road into my family home and straight into my old run down, dust collecting room, where I haven't been for a few years. Now living with my two crazy nut job parents (love ya really!) I have moved back with open arms. Not going to lie though, oh boy do I feel like I've lost my freedom. Getting woken up at 5pm for dinner, when all I want to do is nap all day and getting told I'm like a vampire, creeping back home at 3am in the morning and being told aren't you going to get up now- my life has gone full circle hehe. I have gone from a free living young adult to a 15 year old school girl! I mean I don't mind really as I will always do what I want but it has been a culture shock!

Life in general has been steady. I have turned slightly back to my hermit ways, as I have had a lot to deal with but with a busy summer up ahead at work and a few exciting things in the pipe line, things can only get better. With a little time and certainly some dedicated TLC for myself, I should be back to my normal ways. Let's hope I really don't start re-living my 15 year old self haha! Park benches and WKD- don't you roll your eyes, you know you did it too! 

Today's post has been a tad random but like I said, I find it a nice way to end the week and of course, I always like to keep you updated with how I am getting on. I know I have been a bit distant from my social media and certainly I haven't blogged for at least a week or so (thank goodness for scheduled posts) but I am always here for a chat and if anyone wants to talk, I am just a tweet or comment away. Never think your alone and ladies be brave. Whatever may come your way, I believe things happen for a reason and your fate will always include happiness.

Hugs & Kisses
Becki xox




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  1. Oh dear, how incredibly brave of you. Fingers crossed things will start to get better. Is it bad that having to move back into my family home is probably the biggest thing stopping me from breaking up over here? Probably...

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    1. Thank you so much I am doing much better now xx

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  2. I hope the healing process will be smooth for you lovely, it's never easy to leave a relationship, will be thinking about ya!

    Megan xo
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    1. Its never easy but I am doing ok xx

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  3. Aww massive hugs and you're are right, time is a great healer, just make sure you do have some you time, vampire or not xx

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  4. Huge hugs coming your way - break ups are so hard, especially, like you say, if it's mutual. Out of this pain though will come something better, just please make sure you have time to heal, look after yourself...if there was ever a time to be selfish, it's now.

    We all love reading your posts and are all here for you - so write as many of these heartfelt posts as you need :) The beauty of blogging is that there's support here, whenever you need it.

    You sound like you have a very healthy attitude and I think you're going to be just fine :)

    Jo xx

    She Wears Burgundy

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    1. Thank you for your very positive comment, I am doing so much better now, still comes in waves though xx

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  5. My husband and I broke up once about five years into our relationship. We were living together at the time and I had made the decision to move out and back to my parents house (it really it like turning back into a teenager) fortunately for us we realized how much we mean to each other and gave it another try. Although at the time it was so very hard and it just felt like everything was changing and changing too fast. Your very brave, good luck with everything!
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    1. Wow thats an amazing story, the timing might not have been right for you two but it sounds like your very happy and I hope you two will be happy together xx

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