September 28, 2014

SUNDAY LOVE. #37. TRYING TO MAKE A STAMP ON THE WORLD.

I'm just a girl who wants to make a difference. I have found myself over the last month really struggling with where my future is going. Only just finally finding the man I want to be with, it has really got me thinking where my life is going and what I want my life to become, whilst also thinking about how all of my decisions will in some way affect our lives together. This is scary stuff!

Being twenty something is a strange age to be. I am 6 years till I'm 30, I am closer to my teenage years than I'll ever be but its the next few years that will shape who I become and my life choices are detrimental. Well why is it that I still feel like a kid? When you grow up, your life is planned out for you. You know year from year what you'll be doing and now in my mid-twenties, I am in limbo between being an adult and a child, I couldn't tell you which one is closer.

I want to feel life, live it hard, wild and free but also pay the bills. See my dilemma folks! Is a life like how i dream ever possible when we are all forever working all day and sleeping all night. Can't I just take over Rosie's life on The Londoner and jet set across the world to find myself before it all becomes too late?

I am forever trying to think forward and start creating a future where I can support myself financial and certainly start making a stamp on something that I am passionate about. My problem at the moment is that I feel lost. Working with my family all of my life has had so many perks and I do enjoy it but with the years flying by so quick, I think I need to do something new, take a risk. Go out there into the world and see what I am capable of.

Don't get me wrong, I haven't always been like this. I have literally only just started to find myself again, away from the months and months of severe anxiety, that now I finally have all this freedom, the world is my oyster, I just don't know where to blooming start! I find I am getting ahead of myself by saying I want to travel the world, work in the beauty industry, make my blog as successful as it can be...but the reality is, I still need to find a way to fund all of these big dreams. Ebay I am coming for you!

Help me lovely readers! Are you in a similar situation to me? I just don't know where to start, tell me it gets easier.

Hugs & Kisses
Becki xox



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  1. I feel you! I feel like I should be doing more with my life, and I can but the chances to do so are slim and it always feels like I'm stuck in one place... I think the worst of all is the uncertainty of not knowing what to do next, despite the looming future that hangs overhead. This sounds way too scary but I am sure the way to it is the live one day at a time, and appreciate the little things in life that eventually help you become the person you want to be :) at least that what I hope I can do in the near future...

    Cherie xx | SINONYM

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