November 09, 2014

SUNDAY LOVE. #43. ONTO GREENER PASTURES.

When I come to my lifestyle posts recently, I am not sure if anyone has taken much notice but I have been trying to make them a little less personal. I think over the last few months, I have certainly gone through so much and sometimes looking back over my blog can be a cruel reminder of the trials that I have experienced. Since deciding to keep some of my personal life back, I have to admit that I have struggled what to do with my usual Sunday Love post. 

Big changes are happening for me soon and I have made the big decisions to move out of my family home, take on my own space, find my feet again. This isn't as easy as it sounds, as moving out bares alot of heartache, as when I moved out in September last year, I found myself into a downwards spiral of dark depression and anxiety. I couldn't get out. I have promised myself that I will not let that happen to me again but moving out for me has its worries. I will be spending more time by myself, away from the family and the comforts of home. I am a home bird but I have realised there has to be time in your life when you realise you have to find your own feet otherwise this anxious beans would stay where she is for years to come.

I am lucky that I have a strong support and although my family may question why I am making this big step (more what a waste of money!), for me I have to do it. It's expensive and it's going to be a struggle to afford it financially but do you know what, I think its time I take my life into my own hands and start living it. I've sheltered myself from so much over the last few years that it's only now, I realise the pattern I have got myself in could lead me to miss out on what's out there. If I freak out, I freak out. There isn't much I can do about it. I just have to be brave and reach for the stars. I never want to have any regrets.

I think the one reason that I am struggling to comprehend with leaving home and no it's not having to do my own washing hehe, it's this pup up there. I have become so attached to our baby Beagle Betty Boo. She has brought me so much love and comfort that I'm not sure what I will do without her. I mean look at that face! I will miss the silly things like our night time walk and her snuggling up to me in the night...damn I do need a life or a boyfriend! Exciting times are coming but for now enjoy that gorgeous pup!

I think I will try and keep my lifestyle posts a little organic over the next few weeks in the lead up to me moving out and maybe even share a few home hauls. Do bare with me if I get a little behind though.

Hugs & Kisses
Becki xox



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  1. Congratulations :) It's a super huge decision but it sounds like you're ready to move on, and you'll be determined to make it good! I moved out and had to come home again after redundancy crippled me and my fiance financially, but I'm glad it happened because it could have been a lot worse, and I learnt a lot! We should be glad for our super awesome families (that do our washing for us) because it means we get to learn in a safe way. Enjoy the house hunt lovely! BW, stalker ;) xx

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  2. Good for you for making the decision which should benefit you greatly! Good luck with the move! Looking forward to the homeware hauls. :) xxx
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