February 22, 2015

SUNDAY LOVE. #48. BEING HONEST TO MYSELF AS A BEAUTY BLOGGER.



I can't believe this is now my second year, as a beauty blogger, since going solo last year, time really has passed me by. Over the last few months, it's taken me a while to get back into the swing of blogging and finding the passion again to write. For personal reasons taking two months off was the only answer and in that break I managed to have a good think about what I want LLP to be, within what seems to be a very saturated blogging community.

Blogging has really changed, even since I started a few years back. You read about bloggers everyday within the media, the faces of blogging stars are there on adverts on the tube and well now since Zoella on the Bake Off- even on our TV's! I think it's terrifying how you could go from just the gal who writes alone in her bedroom to a mobbed celeb who can't even go to get a coffee without everyone knowing who you were. I know I certainly didn't sign up for that (highly doubt it will happen of course hehe!) It's intimidating with all of the rising success and I have certainly felt overwhelmed, as if I need to be striving that high otherwise what are we all doing?

I think things got so bad, trust me it pains me to admit this, but I could hear myself saying...Oh I must go to that launch, think of the goody bag...I mean what had happened to my passion for beauty, my desire to learn everything I could not the fricking goody bag.

I looked back over the last year, I hate to admit this but I had slowly started to lose my way as a beauty blogger. My posts had become saturated PR samples and I felt desperate to write about the next best thing, keeping my blog up there with the top bloggers. I had written posts that didn't sound like me, I had lost my focus by instead of writing because I wanted to, I was trying to keep PR's and brand's happy. I can't even believe that I let this happen.

Since then I knew I needed a break to re-focus and find myself again. 

Not only as a beauty blogger do we have the tricky but hugely rewarding task of working with brands, we test and write about products with a supposed honest viewpoint, which it's our loyal readers that deserve the honesty more than the brands. Reading through my posts of 2014, I was writing reviews that were completely there for brownie points with PR's and I am so mad at myself for getting myself into that mind set but it can happen at the slip of a finger.

As a blogger, it's a mean girl world when it wants to be, you can become the green eyed monster over night and with everyone striving to be the next big thing, it's impossible to keep up. That's why I have always tried to stay out of the competitiveness of blogging and if I ever felt like I needed to I would just write about how I felt. It was always those brave and honest posts that with your support made me feel less alone. As soon as I find myself doubting what I do, I needed to take a step back.

Enough of the doom and gloom, now I am focused, driven and excited to be writing again. I've come to know that I'm not going to be the next over night star (boohoo) and why would I want to me. I blog for me and the loyal followers that have helped me along the way. I want to grow (fingers crossed) LLP organically, through hard work and a love for what I have created with my own fair hands. I want to feel proud.

I think it's safe to say that this year, I have decided to share on LLP not only products that I love to use everyday but also share the products that disappoint, despite what PR's, Brands or others may think. I want to stay true to myself and what I really think. I am going to stay focused on me, what I want to write and hopefully you'll love reading what I have to say even more. 

Before I ramble on, I just wanted to say, I am sorry for losing my way but I am back now, back with me, myself and I.

Hugs & Kisses
From an honest Becki xx



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8 comments

  1. Can't wait to see what is next for LLP, let's meet up soon please! xx

    Julie
    www.rainingcake.com

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  2. Glad to see you making your way back. You're so right about how easy it is to get into a PR pleasing way of thinking, although I never read your blog and thought you were only saying positive things about a product for the sake of it. Looking forward to seeing more of you round here again!
    Rebecca | The Two Twenty Somethings
    Xx

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    1. Thank you! Its so good to be back even if it did take a while hehe xx

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  3. This is why I've been subscribed for a long time (although never commented, I'm terrible at that!) - it's so refreshing to read a blog where the blogger can admit that the samples can affect the content. I'm looking forward to your future posts!

    Hayley
    Bonjour, Blogger! | ceriselle.org

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    1. Thank you for sticking around Hayley! Means the world to hear that! Keep a watch for more honesty xx

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  4. Such a god post, and think its so hard to lose yourself and your blog. I am trying to stray from the PR samples as well, even if it does mean posting less. Can't wait to see where your blog goes!

    Annabel ♥
    Mascara & Maltesers

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    1. Thank you Annabel, I don't think PR samples are always the problem, its the mind set of you feel like you have to blog about them and say certain things sometimes but I certainly think Bloggers should be gifted just like writers, as our audience is diverse and usually bigger xx

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